i was i was thin, i wish i was smart, i wish i was pretty, i wish i was okay since i dnt even know what tht is anymore…i can’ty take this bullshitted life anymore i quit i give up i’m done fuck everyone nd moist of all fuck who i am i fuck up everything, hurt ppl, and ruin relationsiphs…why? who the fuck knows i honostly couldn’t tell ya and i beat myself up about it…
Such a waste of 5 good months….they weren’t even that good practically every day was a fight not to take a razor to my wrist…..and even after 5 months, I find myself breaking promises and filled with new slices….
…need some smiles….
…today i woke up sayin “damn, another day bein depressed….i jst went to the beach nd had a good time and i was happy…no i find myself almost in tears, once again depressed….WHAT HAPPENDD!?!?!?